PURE RANDIMONIUM

Bloogy Bracelets

2011-07-27T08:29:00.002-05:00

So i participated in a bloggy swap (my first one!) and i really did enjoy it. It was a bracelet swap and i have to say that the person who gave me mine, Alyssa, did an amazing job and got it perfect. The turquoise one she gifted me i have had my eye on since i saw it at the outlet a few weeks ago. The black one can be dressed up or down and that always makes me happy! I don't know her blog address (it wasn't anywhere with the package) so i cant link her here or follow her but, Alyssa, if you are reading leave me a comment and ill follow and give ya credit! Here is a pic!

New Title/New Duties/BIG Headache!

2011-01-25T08:39:00.003-06:00

Well i haven't posted about this but i am getting a promotion. i am going to be taking over for the lady in my office that is retiring. Let me just tell you this is a blessing and a curse all at the same time. She does EVERYTHING in this office and when i say that i mean it. She does the books, the payroll, the minutes, the budget, the Cd's from the bank, pays the bills, orders supplies, issues permits, plans the seminars, EVERY.SINGLE.THING! so you know what that means NOW I HAVE TO!

To say that she is overworked is an understatement. My boss/her boss should be doing the financial part of it but instead he sits in his office dictating letters and doing work not related to this office while shes been out here for 20 years doing it all. Let me tell you, my boss is NOT the easiest man to get along with either, he wants you to drop what your doing and attend to him RIGHT.THIS.MOMENT and lord don't type and talk to him at the same time, YOU might be able to multitask but he cant and it insults him when you do it (i learned this lesson the hard way!).

For me to say i am stressed doesn't even begin to scratch to the service of how i feel about this. i am excited though and eager to learn but since she told us she was leaving (about a month and half ago) shes been out most of those days so I've been unable to have anyone "show me the ropes" i am going into this job totally blind which FREAKS me out, i honestly don't have a clue what i am going to do, so this could get interesting! I am very excited for the opportunity to prove myself but at the same time with my boss i am afraid we will bump heads, well i know we will eventually, i just need to be on my A game.

Wish me luck in my new adventure because this roller coaster ride starts Monday.

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So Sad

2011-01-19T08:54:00.003-06:00

i wasnt sure i wanted to post this but for whatever reason right now i am feeling the urge/need. My 7 year old dog, who i rescued from a breeder, passed away Monday January 10th. i can honestly say this is the sadest i have been in my life. i miss her so much. i cant even type this without crying. i cant do laundry without crying because she would sit with me in the laundry room and watch me hang clothes. i havent been able to bring myself to wash her blankets because i miss her so much. i know it will get easier but right now, in this moment in time, i am hurting. i love her and i pray every time i think about her that she knew that. i pray i did right by her and never let her down. OK right now im at work and cant type anything else because i will be sobbing. i think i just needed to put it in writting right now!

i miss you Lulu, you will ALWAYS be in my heart! you brought me smiles and joy, please know that!

i do this a lot!

2010-11-08T10:11:00.003-06:00

It seems i go for a while without posting and then ill post a few and then fall off the wagon again. i dont know why i guess its because i dont have much to talk about. i dont have pictures to post because i dont take a lot of pics and if i do its with my phone and those pics are awful. There really isnt anything worth blogging going on but i wanted you all to know im still here, reading all your blogs, trying to come up with something exciting to say or do, LOL! Thats about all i can think of right now maybe ill come back later with something.

Update

2010-08-12T14:09:00.002-05:00

So i have gotten 2 new followers in the last couple days and have felt guilty that there is nothing on this blog that's been updated for them to read or at least entertain them for a minute! I don't know that i have too much to update really but ill see what i can come up with.

My job role has changed a bit, the other woman who i work with had knee surgery that went bad and has been out for a month and a half, I've winged a few things but have actually been forced to learn more about this job which in turn keeps me busy and makes the day go by faster.

Since i have bought a house, i don't know remember if i put that out on the blog or not but i bought a house a few months ago, and it has been a work in progress but i love it. we have gotten new kitchen appliances, painted rooms, and cleaned ourselves silly.

i now have 2 dogs. i have 2 English bulldogs, one named Skye and one named LuLu, i love them more and more every single day and they put such a smile on my face nothing could compare! LuLu is 7 (the lady we got her from told us the wrong age) and she is just a little love bug. she has THE.WORST.BREATH. on the planet but she wiggles and dances when she sees you so it cancels that out for me!

hmmm...nothing else going on really, sad life i lead, LOL!

Ink isnt just for pens and tattoos!

2010-06-24T14:22:00.003-05:00

Ok i am a total blog stalker, yes its creepy, yes i need a 12 step, and yes it should be a crime but i cant help it. sometimes i find the goods im lookin for and sometimes i find crap but on the day i do find the goods i am totally all over that like white on rice! where am i going with this you may ask? i am going here and you should too! this chicks art ROCKS MY SOCKS OFF! i am currently stalking her etsy page trying to determine which i want more, THIS, this, or this. i do also however LOVEEEEEEEEEE the cake plate she has on her blog and the yellow mirror, I DIE when i see it! All of these things would go great in my kitchen, my bedroom, my office, my hallway..well you get the idea ANYWHERE! also the bride and groom are AMAZING, did i mention she does all the work herself? i mean im totally jealous of the talent but totally appreciate what she does for those of us without any (me). i mean seriously people you have GOT to go check her out, her style is amazing!

Here is the link again to Illustrated Inks Blog go there, tell her how wonderful she is!

NEW APPLIANCES!!!

2010-06-23T09:05:00.005-05:00

i mean really how lame-o is it to be excited about a new refrigerator? because yesterday i was that girl! the fridge we had was about the size of a dorm fridge which when your an adult and don't live in a dorm it isn't really practical! it is a stainless side by side Kenmore elite (doesn't that just sound fancy to say? i agree!) so here are pics (the dishwasher, stove, and microwave with vent a hood come at the end of the week, YAYYYY!!! and they do match)

Also, i had a DRs apt on Monday, nothing big just my yearly, and brought up a few things like PMDD that i thought i might have so we elected to change my birth control to Yaz, do you know anyone that's taken that? my sister said she knew people that took it that got pregnant, uhm excuse me that's the opposite reason I'm taking you!, also I've read some of the reviews and they aren't that great so I'm a little leery! the DR also advised me that i might want to start taking a multi-vitamin so i went to Walmart last night and got these HOARSE PILLS i mean vitamins, does this make me officially old? do any of you take vitamins you would recommend? i don't like taking pills and these.things.are.huge. (that's what she said! HA!)

Anyone have any extra motivation laying around?

2010-06-17T09:12:00.003-05:00

I need motivation and i dont have it. i have GOT to get back to my Jillian Michaels work out, i cannot quit now! im thinking about eatin dinner in my bathing suit, wouldnt that be a treat! LOL or maybe hanging my bathing suit up where i have to look at it every.single.day. and maybe that will motivate my fat ass to get up, work out, and be skinny. My only motivation when i started was rewarding myself with a fruit popsicle (no fat, no calories, but very delish) when i finished my workouts but it isnt working anymore! I NEED SOMETHING!

what motivates you? (i might steal it if i like it!)

These are the exact fruit bars i bought, courtesy google images!

Hello New Layout!

2010-06-16T08:37:00.002-05:00

Well i am trying something new, tell me what you think folks. Those 2 at the top are my beautiful babies! The one on the left is Skye, she is saying "why do i have to take a picture with her mom?", the one on the right is LuLu, she says "ANOTHER picture with HER!". i love them with all of my heart and soul.

Wondering

2010-06-16T07:59:00.006-05:00

i don't know if its just me (i am hoping it isn't) but I'm almost 30 (sweet Jesus!) and i cannot for the life of me fix my own hair or do my own make up. i know, i know, it sounds kind of weird but i have really oily hair so i wash it daily (I'm afraid of dry shampoo) and its curly if i don't dry it straight (i don't use a chi or any of that crap because then its TOO straight in my opinion and i like BIG hair) so basically after i dry it that's it, it's drab, plain, and simply pretty ugly. its long, which i like, but i just don't know what to do with it. any ideas? any suggestions? i am down for anything at this point. now the make up, i don't think i look 29, I'm not saying that in a i have baby soft skin and am beautiful, i mean like i just don't think i look my age (these 15 year old puberty zits on my face are here to prove that for me!) i just don't feel like i know what i am doing when it comes to make up, almost like its too advanced for me or if i do too much i will look like a clown, and no one likes clowns! any suggestions and advice would be greatly appreciated. i know i like plum colors, like purples, they seem to look best on me. i think when i was younger (who said that? THIS old lady said that!) i was a little more daring, a little more single, and a little more uninhibited with myself than i am now because sweet Jesus who is that hot girl in those pictures from 6 or 7 years ago? THAT'S ME!!! but you would never know it now. maybe I'm having an age crisis, i am almost 30 *dies*!!!

(all images courtesy of google images)

Giveaway!!!!

2010-06-14T11:45:00.000-05:00

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Dishes

2010-06-11T11:52:00.004-05:00

OK there is a blog thing thingie going on at Kelly's Korner and i thought i would participate today. This is my first linkup! its about dishes, i like dishes, i like to see all the patterns some are ugly and some are just too fancy for my tastes! i have some china but i cannot for the life of me find anything close to it on the internets. it is a very light gray rose pattern, it was my Mimi's and i cherish it very much. im not sure how she got it but i assume my grandfather bought it for her piece by piece because she just HAD to have it! i love it and im sure i wont ever use it but it means the world to me. i love roses and her so it will forever remind me of her even when she isnt here. my everyday dishes were a gift from my boyfriends mother who has since passed away. i love them, they are red and square. they were cheapies from walmart but they are great and very heavy and we use them every single day!

Hello Friday!

2010-06-11T08:34:00.002-05:00

Well hello there Friday my sweet sweet friend, how are you? i dont even care that it is raning this morning because its supposed to be gone by the end of the day. i hope you all had a great week and have an even better weekend, I wish the weekends were longer but who doesnt?

i dont have much to blog about today not much going on around here at all. i am still getting things in my house, trying to get rid of things, and trying to make my house a home.

i really think i need to get involved more in either my community, some kind of organization, or something! im 29 not 21 people dont just come to me anymore i am going to have to seek them.

A lot of things have changed for me as far as friendships go over the last year to two years. i have lost a very dear friend, not in death, but in life choices. she made several bad choices that i did not feel made her someone i needed to be associated with anymore so i stepped back from her life and she has not made any attempt to either change or reach out so she is dead to me. also i had another friend, an old roommate, who went off the deep end. she had always been different but it wasnt anything like this. she also made several choices in her life that i felt i did not want to be assocaited with so she is also dead to me. what i am saying may be really harsh but its almost like it has to be for me because these 2 people are my closest friends and then POOF nothing so as fast as they were here they were gone. i am really OK with it because i am better off, i dont need people associating me with them especially with the way they lead their lives, THAT IS NOT ME! and you are the company you keep so they are no longer in my company! i have also recently been out of contact with a friend who is leaving her husband. she was married for 7 years to a man who was child. he is almost 40, waits tables about 3 days a week, plays with remote control cars, smokes d*pe, plays playstation, still sucks his thumb, and was an all around child. she finally saw what everyone else did. she made the money, she paid the bills, she had friends, and she was better off without him. i guess this has made her go "buck wild" and i guess i cant blame her. ive never been married so i dont really understand what she is going through, she doesnt talk to me about it, she doesnt talk to me period. i dont know ive always said if the same thing keeps happening to you in different situations it must be you so maybe its me. UH OH i think it is! hmm well ill leave you guys with that for the weekend.

i hope everyones weekend is exciting, relaxing, and fun!

Blogging Slump Product Review!!

2010-06-10T08:26:00.003-05:00

Ok so i didn't have anything to blog about for the last 2 months simply because i moved, bought a house, I'm still getting things together, and life in general got in the way. I'm not trying to make any excuses because i don't think people read this thing anyway but there it is, i said it! So in order to take me out of this slump i decided to do 2 Product Reviews. i recently, meaning I've done it twice now, started the 30 day shred with that devil woman Jillian Michaels. my legs and abs hurt so bad and I'm just on level one which proves to me how out of shape i really am. i was informed i had three weeks to get in some kind of shape because i would be in a bathing suit in front of people other than family so I'm gonna try and do it every day until that day, LOL! we will see what happens. its a pretty good 20min work-out that keeps me sweating but i hate the music i feel like i need glow sticks and baggy pants! it has done me good, i have more energy I've noticed, I'm not just dead tired all the time and i was that girl that needed a nap after work just to make it to bed time! i am trying to eat healthier as well and the boyfriend has gotten on that train too. he hasn't started the work out with me but he will, i told him last night while i was doing it that i didn't want him to come into the room because i felt kind of foolish and i turn around and he had the damn video camera in his hand while i was doing punches, too funny boyfriend but paybacks a bitch! all in all i think this video will get me where i need to be and i like that idea, since its 3 weeks away and i need a bikini body!

The second product i got was the spin pin, i got it in brunette and it works great! i have thick hair that will stretch an elastic hair band out in a week and these things hold my hair up and out of my face GREAT! i am still working out a few kinks because i do have so much hair that sometimes the pieces fall out but so far so good. i recommend it to everyone! they don't get caught in your hair, you twist them in, one on top and one on the bottom, like screwing in a nail and when you are ready to take it out you "unscrew" them like righty tighty lefty lucy! LOL if you are hesitating to buy them i say go for it!

Those are my reviews for today, ENJOY! i hope to have more exciting things to come and if anyone wants to send me a product for review i have the time and will be honest! (both links taken from google!)

One more dog!

2010-04-15T09:53:00.003-05:00

OK, we did it, we got another dog! i would post a picture of her but the wiggle worm would not sit still last night for me to take one. she is a retired breeder (she was a mommy to no telling how many puppies) and she isn't producing anymore so we basically rescued her from being a continued breeding machine, which is a good thing in our book. she was given to us by the lady we got our first dog from, they are both english bulldogs. her name is minni luke but we call her moomoo or just minni, i think they lady called her minni moo or minni lou, she doesn't really listen well but shes gonna learn i have faith. she also hates collars and leashes, shes never had either!, so that should be a treat!

My little turkey doesn't really know what to think about her. she took over her crate and that didn't sit well but she moved on, thankfully i have 2 crates! we will see how things go because they are being left alone together, lets pray i still have a house when i get home and i still have 2 dogs, LOL!

Do we add another?

2010-04-12T14:34:00.002-05:00

When do you add another dog to your house? how do you know you are ready? (i know this isn't a child but there is expense, time, love, bills, everything). we currently have an english bulldog (who is my world, sad i know but I've come to find I'm not the only one!) we have the opportunity to add another english bulldog from the same breeder to our house due to some bad personal things that have happened to her. all of her dogs are very well taken care of and loved. we have had no issues, health or otherwise, with our dog she is very happy, healthy, and full of life. all of her female breeders are available and also the male (stud) who is my dogs dad (is that weird to anyone else?) She is giving these dogs away, GIVING!, her babies that she loved since the day the they were born she is giving away, i don't know all the details of it but i think it has to do with divorce (vote 1 for never getting married!). i just CANNOT turn away another bulldog, its what I've been wanting, but am i ready for another dog? I've had mine almost 3 years, she has separation anxiety and i think she needs a playmate, is this how i would decide to have another child? LOL

we are going Wednesday to check them out and take her to see how she does with them because it really all depends on her. when we take her to the dog park she doesn't pay any attention to the other dogs. she just plays with us and herself and then is ready to go when we are. i know it will be different when they are in her house, her space, with her things, and her people. Wish us luck because the male is HUUUUUUUUUUGE and could eat me out of house and home which i really pray doesn't happen! females get too jealous of each other (imagine that? even in the dog world).

PASSED

2010-04-05T11:13:00.002-05:00

Well...it happened...Saturday night at 10:45 my boyfriends mother passed away. i was there, at her house, where she was, when it happened. i was not in the room. she is no longer in pain and in a better place. please keep him in your thoughts.

please don't mistake my shortness for rudeness i just don't know what to else to say.

excuses....excuses...you know what those are like

2010-03-30T08:42:00.003-05:00

Yeah i accidentally posted a blank post with the same title, LOL it HAS been a while!

So I've been MIA, totally MIA, but for good reason! i have been in the process of buying a house! yes, like signing your life away for 30 years, paying the same amount of interest as you intend to pay for the entire house, THAT type of buying a house! it just made sense to me, why throw away rent when you can buy and do what you want to your own space! once i get moved in and get all my furniture and get MY house the way *I* want it i will post pics.

I would like to take the time to describe my piece of the world to you! i have a link but that would tell all the weirdos where i live and i save that for only a select number of weirdos that have been prescreened! I'm actually moving to a different city, well i say city its only 15 to 20 mins away from where i am now, but as you can imagine my mother thinks I'm moving across the world. it made sense to move there, it was cheaper, i got more house, and a great location for me, work, and life itself! it has the BEST wrap around porch in the front, a great backyard for my doggy, and a garage (its the simple things in life!) i have so many ideas for this space and let me tell you since this is really my first space to do whatever i want with i am vomiting ideas, some crap some not so crap.

i will say this, its a little hard since it is my first REAL space to do whatever with, its weird to get over the apartment (renting) notions of not being able to change things or having to OK them with the landlord. granted i am currently renting a house but i cant change anything and had my current house been in a better neighborhood i would have wanted to buy it, but alas it is NOT so i have to move. anyway, its hard to get over the idea of being able to do what you want to your own space and actually being an adult about it, you know REAL furniture (not hand-me-downs), picking paint colors, picking light fixtures (pendant lighting, please!), looking at this space and thinking HOLY SHIT THIS IS MY PIECE OF THE WORLD!, it is a very surreal experience that i never thought would be possible for me, EVER!

Also, the boyfriend and I are moving into this space together, no one told me that was going to be this hard. i want one thing and he wants another, every place we have lived in so far has been "his" place not mine. it has had no sense of me in it and i think it scares me a little to have this place be both of us. i don't compromise well, i don't ever apologize, and i judge really quickly. i may or may not have shot down some of his ideas before i even heard them and yes for that i am truly sorry (no i haven't said that to him). we got into a fight last night about it and i feel like trash about it today because i got mad at him for not being excited (like me) during this process and then we he starts to bring up ideas i don't want to listen. i think its because all of our places have been "his" and I'm afraid this will turn out that way too I'm afraid to just let go and let this be US an US that i have waited 5 years for, an US that i figured would never happen, an US that makes me want to scream at the top of lungs, ITS FINALLY US! yeah its cheesy but whatever!

Also, the $8,000 tax credit I'm getting for buying this little gem is going to help out a lot, we have budgeted well enough to buy a few new things and still have money left for a rainy day. he is so much better with money than i am and for that i truly am grateful (nope not told him that either). A new bed, a new TV, a new fridge, and a new couch are in my future and i can not freaking wait.

Well i just wanted to updated you guys on where I've been and what I've been doing. i have stalking most of you on a daily basis but I'm a creeper and I've been staying in the shadows but i should be coming out of the dark soon!

Quick start, a party, and some hair!

2010-01-26T09:35:00.004-06:00

ok January has been speeding past me like a fat girl at a buffet and i dont like it. i havent felt rushed or anything but i looked up and all of a sudden its the 26th and i have nothing to show for it, anyone else feel this way? i hope 2010 has started out positive for you all and i hope it continues that way for all of you. i am trying to be more positive in my every day life and not look at the negative all the time! so far its hit or miss and depends on the day and my mood but i think that was always the case!

Tomorrow, 60 years ago, my mother was born! dear god i cant believe my mother is going to be 60 i never thought i would have 60 year old parents, that just seems so old to me. im going to be 29 this year and im not dealing with that well so i can only imagine her feelings on being 60. she doesnt read this blog so i realize i basically called my mom old back there but she wont ever know if i dont say it to her face! LOL! love you mom if you happen to find this! let me just say that i love my mother, she is my best friend, she doesnt give advice and never has she simply tells you how she feels and if you dont like it tough shit. dont ask her for advice unless you want her opinion because thats all youll get. shes controlling, string willed, and stubborn, hmm i wonder where i get it from?? She hasnt always been the best support there is because she doesnt ever agree with me but shes there for me when i need her and when i dont. i love her and i wouldnt trade her stubborn ass for any other mother in the world! LOL we are an honest family!

i almost had a breakdown yesterday! i e-mailed a picture to my hair girl to see if you thought it was doable (you will get said picture in a moment) and she said yes and so i said good ill bring it with me saturday (the 30th, this weekend, the day ive been looking forward to) and she says i dont have you down for saturday, i started to sweat, baaaaaaad! so i went back on her facebook and found the conversation between her and i and mailed it to her to show where we confirmed the appointment (i love having proof) so she says whoops i forgot to write it down. im in panic mode! THANK GOD she said she could do me at 11:30 otherwise i might have lost my mind and started cutting and coloring my own hair with no regard for my own safety!

oh yeah i almost forgot i told yall i would post that picture of the hair, i welcome all opinions. ill even post 2, the top is the color im going for and the bottom is the cut, discuss, LOL! (i forget where i found these i just googled what i was looking for and there they were, sorry if i left off credit for someone)

New Years Eve 2009

2009-12-31T09:19:00.003-06:00

Yeah i know I'm totally slacking on my blogging, things have consumed me. Yes it is New Years eve so I'm allowed to reflect on the past year so here goes...

This year did not go as planned not that i had a plan but if i had this would not have been it. The last half of the year saw a lot of drama, tears, and change. the change was good but its too bad the drama and the tears had to come in order for it to happen. things are better than they were and are getting better, relationship speaking only. the end of 2009 brought horrible news and will only carry over into 2010 and many years to come. my boyfriends mother has cancer. she has brain and lung cancer and has started radiation treatment for the brain cancer but will not do chemo. the DR gave her a year, honestly i tear up just thinking about it. i have never lost a parent nor have either of my parents been sick. i cant even imagine what he is going through or what he will go through during this process. the only thing i can do is be there to support him, cry with him, laugh with him, and do whatever it is that he needs when he needs it. i am NOT good with stuff like this sometimes i think my emotions just don't want to deal with it but i know i have to so I'm being an adult and I'm going to deal with the hard stuff as it comes. the boyfriend and i have been together 5 years, that's a long time folks, we have been through a lot i first met him when my grandfather past and i was in a bad place, i got over that and I'm better for it. his mother has been the only one who has supported me, its hard to explain and i don't even know if those are the right words but shes always been the one to support and back the decisions I've made in this relationship and she doesn't even know how i feel. wow that hurt to say! because what if she never knows, she doesn't live here is it weird to get personal with someone who isn't your mother, who is sick, who barely knows you, but who reassured you that you were doing the right thing when no one else did and didnt even know it?

WOW wasn't this post supposed to be about 2009 and not all sad and mopey? i guess 2009 was sad and mopey, 2010 can only get better right! dear god lets all hope it does!

i turn 29 in 2010, this FREAKS me out! i hope to take more trips in 2010! i just really hope 2010 brings a smile to my face and brings you all what you want and need from it. please keep us in your prayers/thoughts, I'm not someone who prays but anything can help, right? we need it!

Happy New Year loves! be safe always!

New Moon and other random things!

2009-11-19T08:26:00.003-06:00

YAYYYYYYY today is the day and im freakin excited. i am going to New Moon at the premier at midnight tonight and i cant freakin wait! i may have changed my mind about what i am going to wear but i have NOT changed my mind about going. The weather is cold and the tickets are HOT! i have no life just let me have this! (don't judge me) i know some of you out there are going as well so i know there is no judging, LOL!

Lets see what else do i have going on? hmmm that's a big fat nothing! i am ready to put my Christmas tree up even though i just can NOT get on the Christmas train this year. i am also ready for some turkey day eats. Whats your fav Turkey Day dish? i have several! i loveeee my moms macaroni and cheese, her hashed brown potato casserole, her broccoli and cheese casserole, and pretty much anything else starchy i can shove in my face like HOMEMADE mashed potatoes! i don't do stuffing or dressing because of the consistency it makes me want to hurl! My mom also knows that i pretty much only eat what she makes so she gets stuck making it because I'm afraid if I make it it wont taste the same and i know it wont because I'm not my mom, does that make sense? but please share with me your fav turkey day dishes id love to hear them and maybe get a recipe or 2.

no new fashion to report, I'm saving for my trip to Florida so i hafta cut back which is OK by me as long as i get the HECK outta here for a little while, i need to get away!

That is all for now my dears! Have a wonderful day and weekend I'm sure i will not be posting anything over the weekend!

Friday Fiddels

2009-11-13T10:53:00.003-06:00

The title is extremely stupid I'm sorry *hangs head in shame* but you'll read it and like it *shaking fist* this will be a random post, that seems to be the direction this blog has taken, imagine that a blog called Randimonium is totally random, WHO KNEW! I'm blonde at the roots I'm sorry, don't judge me! LOL i digress and ON TO THE RANDOM CRAP!

1. i would like more of a challenge at my job
2. i can NOT get into Christmas this year, AT ALL I'm just not there, i actually could care less if i even celebrated it, sad? yes and i don't really know why i don't care about it this year...
3. I'm going to throw my cell phone on the ground and stomp on it if it freezes up on me ONE.MORE.TIME.
4. i am very excited about New Moon
5. the guy I'm dating has a daughter, and this is pretty gross but not her fault, and she got lice so I, of course, have been a nervous wreck every time my head itches but it appears we are all in the clear, none on me and she is lice free, THANK GOD!
6. i seem to be the only one in my group of friends that invites everyone to hang out the others will do things together and not invite me (dear god that sounds whiny but its actually meant to be bitchy) like if i wanna hang out i call them if they hang out they hang out and don't call me, shitty huh?
7. 16lbs lost and i now look homeless in all my pants but cant spend the money right now to get new ones, HAHAHAHH i look retarded!
8. i am going to Holiday House tonight with my mom, its a local thing where all these vendors get together and offer discounts and holiday shopping all in one place for convience, its put on by the Junior League so its geared mostly for women and I've never been and I'm truly excited about going to Cherry Republic (i get their catalogues and i love all things cherry) google them if you are into that sort of thing
9. i want to watch Home Alone, it is my favorite holiday movie, lame-o i know but i like it, don't judge me!
10. I'm obsessed with farmville on facebook! its a sickness.

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Have a Wonderful Weekend loves!

Thursday Thoughts

2009-11-05T10:36:00.003-06:00

so today is Random Thursday and i thought i would list what random things are on my thinking list and have been for some time.

1. something is wrong with my eye...it always feels like something is in it and I'm always scratching it...nothing seems to fix it....and i keep pulling (this is gross) strings of something out of it and last night something yellow (looked like mucus) came out of it, maybe my brain is falling out of my eyes? HAHAHA
2. i am very worried about a friend and just want it all to work out for her.
3. Christmas commercials really?
4. FLORIDA IN A MONTH!!!!!!
5. I'm bored with my job but thankful to have one at the same time.
6. i feel asleep in the bathtub last night for an hour, LOL
7. i need a maid.
8. i need to put myself on a budget.
9. i need it to get colder if these Christmas commercials are going to keep playing.
10. i want to put my Christmas tree up (i totally forgot i even had one since last year was the first year i put one up since I've lived on my own, sad i know!)
11. i freaking love my dog! like seriously its insane shes the most important thing in my life and will always have my heart
12. I'm ready for thanksgiving because I'm gonna eat like no one is watching, LOL!
13. 15lbs lost, i have no pants to wear to work that fit so I'm looking a little homeless right now, LOL!
14. i need a new phone, as soon as my friend said they were getting a new one mine decided to take a turn into the crapper!

That's all for today. i know i haven't posted in a while but I'm still trying to get all my ducks in a row with all the BS that's going on but it will be OK soon enough i just have to hang in there, put my big girl panties on and deal with it!

Random Tuesday

2009-10-27T14:25:00.002-05:00

I'm not going to link to anyone because these are my own random thoughts and no one asked me to or invited me to do this so =P (kidding)

1. why doesn't it stop?
2. seriously rain i may kill you
3. 16lbs and counting
4. don't mess with me ill fuck you up
5. it hurts a lot to be here
6. dear god is it Friday yet
7. coffee i love you in the morning
8. dear person who parks too close, please see number 4
9. dear boss, stop asking me if i got married,kthxbye
10. i have the best friend in the world and yet I've never met her
11. she picked meeeeeeeee
12. i carved a pumpkin and it turned out cute
13. seriously Tuesday can you just end?
14. yeah i bought stripper shoes
15. i need a haircut baaaaaaad
16. i reactivated my facebook page and I'm not sure how i feel about it
17. WHY ME?!?
18. my boss farts and i hear it
19. new tattoo coming soon (i have 4 already)
20. my heart hurts and my head

so much that i cant say right now

2009-10-25T22:23:00.003-05:00

so I've drafted a post about whats been going on in my life, where it all came from, why its crappy, who it involves, how i thought it was getting better, when i discovered it wasn't, what I'm doing to deal, and if i knew where to go but i cant bring myself to finish it. have you ever had something that was so bad you just didn't want to deal with it and you didn't really know how to deal with it. something that broke you down mentally and physically and you didn't know how you were going to get back up. something or someone that did more damage to you inside than you ever thought someone could do. i just sometimes wish i wasn't me, that i was someone else, someone stronger, someone more at ease, someone who was equipped to handle things that were negative. i know we all get down at times and i know for the most part we all come away from those things stronger with more awareness of who we are and how strong we really can be, but when its something so life changing its just so hard to see how that is going to happen. i know i will be OK, i know life will go on regardless of whats going on in my life but i wish i could lock myself in a room for about a week and have it all go away and when i get out ill have totally forgotten about what it was in the first place however i know i don't live in fantasy land and I've got to put on my big girl panties and deal with it, face it, tackle it, either move on or make things better. i want things to be better, i don't want things to be the way they were because ill just end up here again and i refuse to come back here. i am in a dark place i get a glimpse of light every now and then but the dark always seems to return. i wish i felt more comfortable with this blog to really let it all out but my darkness does not need to be seen here yet, maybe when I've been around a little bit longer ill share all the details, maybe if the darkness passes and the light returns i will share. For now i just want to vent, let it out, deal with it in some way more than tears, anxiety attacks, sleepless nights, and horrible thoughts running in my head 24/7.

Craptastic

2009-10-21T15:00:00.000-05:00

So today sucks, just wanted to let everyone know. actually the last few have sucked just when i think everything is going well BAM something smacks me in the face, hence the reason for no blogging because they would be horrible posts filled with tears, cursing, and sad faces. im still here and im still alive (barely)

Love yall!

Posts from bed...

2009-10-15T22:53:00.005-05:00

i mean I'm really excited about this. i am making a blog post from my bed instead of my office i freakin love (i know I'm late on this trend, don't judge!) i took a benadryl so this could go either really long or super short I'm not sure yet HA! so i have high hopes for this blog now that my Internet at home is working, its been like at least 6 months, don't ask its a long story full of a lot of crap. but it works now so lets not dwell, i think I've posted about the Internet working twice now, I'm like a broken record.

so the fair is in town, i went Wednesday, there were not a lot of people out which was great.however i got invited to go Friday after work but this time we are not going to just eat but I'm gonna ride rides (we only ate Wednesday) ill let you all know how it goes because there is a lot more to it than just the rides or even going to the fair, I'm always so cryptic when i type on this blog and i don't really know why, i mean its MY world and my thoughts i don't know whats holding me back, probably just myself.

i am starting to get sleepy so I'm gonna cut myself off now before this gets ugly! LOL i will promise to post more that i can do it from the comfort of my own bed! now i leave you with these gems from MYYYYYYYY computer:

<--i was 21 in this picture, oh to be that skinny again!

<--dollar beer night at the bowling alley in 2004..i hang out with 2 people in this picture now and it amazes me how life and people change in such a short time

New

2009-10-13T09:44:00.003-05:00

So i changed my layout for about the MILLIONTH time, A.D.D. much? i think so. i finally got my Internet working at my house so i will be able to post coherent things now that i have MY computer working and I'm not at work. its hard to blog at work sort of the reason i haven't posted a lot and I've got a lot on my mind but that's at any given moment on ANY day! and ya know really? who doesn't have a lot on their mind, if they work, go to school, take care of kids, its a lot to keep stored in that mushy thing between our ears, agree? i thought so! So tonight i think i will post (from the comfort of my bed!) if i don't it will be soon from my computer, with all my pictures, and the ability to google really dirty things on my own computer and post here to REALLY show myself off, NOT NAKED, ya weirdos this isn't THAT kind of place!

More to come soon! Have a great day!

Thursday Thinking

2009-10-08T10:47:00.003-05:00

Holy crap finally its Thursday, almost Friday, my boss will be gone tomorrow for a week, it could not get any better than that!

You know i was trying to read some blogs to get inspiration for this post but it just didn't happen, i mean i obviously got inspiration to post something but nothing struck me as any sort of idea or theme or whatever so AGAIN (theme, possibly?) this will be totally random.

1. i know i have an award out there that i have not done, I'm working on it and i have saved the draft of it but it is NOT finished, boo on me i know!

2. i saw my Mimi the other night, she was featured on a previous post, she looks better, she has color in her face, she was more coherent, never going to be the same but it was much better (i don't want to get my hopes up though)

3. I've lost 12lbs!

4. i saw a girl, the guy I'm dating used to work with, who i also worked with at one point, who i almost called child protective services on because she would buy drugs and then go home and her and her son would eat cheese standing up in the kitchen because "mommy didn't have money for food" who i gave food to out of MY pantry (to her son NOT her) who wore designer jeans on her cracked out skinny body but shopped at goodwill for her child. i saw her at wal mart last night with her boyfriend who slaps her around and we (the guy I'm dating and myself) hid behind the isles so she would NOT see us, it was comical. she is also fat, which made me smile but shes still ugly!

5. Old Navy is my kryptonite!

6. Beer, homemade ranch dip with carrots, cheese dip, and cold weather make me happy.

7. i enjoy Cajun food a lot more than i thought i did!

8. my dog and i have conversations (sad i know)

9. i am gifting a new moon ticket to a girlfriend and she just doesn't know it yet (none of my IRL friends read my blog, is that weird?)

10. i clicked on a blog, that ive read before, at work yesterday and a penis popped up on my screen, seriously, a PENIS, it was small and wrinkly but it was there in all its glory, no one but me saw it thank god but i had to run to the bathroom because i was so embarassed that it happened!

i mean talk about random...lets see if i have any pics for y'all...

<--please ignore the hair it was bedtime

Fashion Friday and a little T.V.

2009-10-02T08:12:00.005-05:00

Ok so i want to start this off by saying i got this outfit approved by 2 text messages with my girlfriends who could not be in my room, Thanks Joy and Katy (she doesn't read the blog!), LOL! anyways it looks a lot cuter than the picture (at least i hope)

Ok so the outfit goes a little something like this....white vneck from Target, leggings from jcpenny, long sweater from Ann Taylor loft, and the boots are the best thing i got them for 7 dollas from Savers about 5 years ago, i have barely worn them but i see they will get a lot of use this fall. This is what i wore to work today, yes i tried it on last night to make sure it wasn't ugly, LOL! Don't judge!

Now on to the T.V.!

So i watched Vampire Diaries last night, that damn show always gets me in the last 10 mins when i least expect it and they have this sappy song playing in the background and its all intense, damn you Vampire Diaries for bringing out my tears!!!

I also watched Greys last night, i just don't know about that show i do love it and i love all the characters but i just don't know there is something about it but I'm sure i will keep watching.

And for whatever reason, possibly the cooler air or that its Friday, i wanted to share this picture i took, we didn't buy it but we really thought about it.

Have a great weekend!

Bikes, Blues, and kickball

2009-09-30T08:15:00.005-05:00

So this past weekend i went to Fayetteville for Bikes, Blues, and BBQ i didn't really see much of the festival but i did the inside of the bars on Dickson and lovedddddd all the bikes driving down Dickson, i think that's my favorite part, i love motorcycles and I've only been on one in my entire life and it was very recently anyways i had a good time (i took NO pics)

Then on Sunday when i got up (slowly after many shots taken the night before) i went and watched some kickball, NWA is slowly starting to take off with it just like little rock. the guy I'm dating actually started it so that's why i went. i also went to MO to get lottery tickets and went to the Promenade up there. i have to stay i love NWA, its beautiful up there and i would love to move there, so maybe one day i will be there permanently! anyways we had a good time and that's all that matters!

Other than that nothing is going on in my world, work work work, and that's about it. i have a lovely head cold (not the flu thank god) but my voice almost sounds like Bea Arthur's and i get to the answer the phone at my office, how sexy is THAT? LOL i am loving the cooler weather and i have joined the tights bandwagon so we will see how many looks i can come up with, i have several in my head but we will see how they actually come out, wish me luck, OH and ill take suggestions! if anyone out there knows how to get polyvore on their blog i need some instructions because i just cant figure it out. OHHHHH i need a haircut, baaaaad not a color just a cut (i could stand a color, damn recession) we will see when i get one, i want Kim Kardashians hair length so I'm trying to wait it out!

hows that post for RANDOM?!?!?!? sometimes i wonder how i function during the day with all these thoughts in my head! LOL

<--it rained for about a week here and this is what we had at the end, its beautiful! (just wanted to share)

The crazy lady and her tickets

2009-09-23T13:10:00.004-05:00

OK so i haven't really posted about my obsession with all things twilight because, well, I'm an adult and i don't want to seem crazy but i do love it, granted, not as much as some but if this post tells you anything about it go ahead and shake your head at the crazy lady who already has her tickets to see New Moon at midnight on its release date and who also has her outfit picked out that she is going to wear to the premier, like I'm going to the red carpet or something, so yeah go ahead and whisper about the crazy new moon lady because THAT'S ME!!!!! but i post this lovely picture so maybe you all wont talk TOO bad about how crazy i am!

Johnny Carson, Mimi, and the smell of wine

2009-09-22T08:12:00.003-05:00

OK so the title will reveal itself as i type this blog. i posted yesterday that i had a horrible weekend and i did! my grandma is in the final stages of Alzheimer's and is starting to shut down, literally. this post is for her. Joy asked me yesterday to describe her so here goes:

Mimi, that's what we all call her, i have no boy cousins, no boys in the family but husbands and boyfriends, she always wanted a boy but she loved us more than anything on the planet. we were always "hers" no matter what. my sister is the oldest and had her all to herself until my cousin and i came along 7 years later (think my sister loved that? noooo) they (my grandfather and Mimi) would always take us on trips in their RV we went to DC, Virginia, and anywhere you could learn something you always had to learn something with my grandparents and after the learning then came the fun, the shopping and the ice cream. ooooooooo the ice cream i swear i ate more ice cream growing up with Mimi than i did ever in my life. i loved her for that and so many other things. she always watched Johnny Carson at night and would read the paper and drink a glass a wine, oh the smell of wine will ALWAYS remind me of her. she would hum the Johnny Carson theme song and rock us to sleep or she would make a song up or twinkle twinkle little star could always be heard at bedtime. i don't think my grandfather slept in his bed when we would visit because she always wanted us with her. she would make a palette on the floor and we would just laugh and giggle till we fell asleep, i love you Mimi and i always will. my grandfather passed away 4 years ago and she doesn't remember that and always asks for someone to get him for her because he would know what to do and he would he always did. as i got older i didn't visit as often and i regret it because you still remember me and always tell me you love me. ill miss you Mimi! she hasn't passed yet and as far as i know she may hold on for a while yet but her organs are shutting down and she isn't eating. She will always be my Mimi and i will always remember the things she did for me, the ice cream she let me eat, how she let me and my cousin play dress up in the closet with the mink coats and the high heels, how she let me play in her make up, how she loved me more than anything in this world and i her.

10 lost, where is friday, and a not so great weekend

2009-09-21T09:36:00.003-05:00

So yeah my title totally fits what I'm thinking today! I've lost 10lbs in a month, i wonder where my Friday is and why its only Monday, and my weekend was not so great but more on the not so great weekend later, I'm at work and about to go into a meeting so i don't have much to blog and I've been MIA for a few days.

big bang theory starts tonight! just sayin...

hope everyones weekend rocked their socks off and the week goes quickly for all!

OMG

2009-09-15T07:55:00.002-05:00

As if i didnt want this movie to come out like yesterday this trailer makes it a must see at midnight the night it comes out!

http://www.mtv.com/ontv/vma/2009/

BUZZZZZZZ

2009-09-14T15:39:00.003-05:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH she didnt like it at first but she got used to it...i loved it

There was more to my weekend than my dog in a bee costume but i will post it later. i hope everyone had a great weekend!

A few things on Friday

2009-09-11T07:48:00.004-05:00

So i watched Vampire Diaries last night, OMG i was hooked in the first 15mins and then in the last 15 i cried, because im a sucker! but i did actually like it im sure it will be cheesy and all that goes with teen shows but thats me a cheesy wannabe teenager, LOL! i will continue to watch. All i want for Christmas is a Vampire (not the yucky ones).

So,on my way to work this morning i got behind an altima that had a pink license plate frame that said WARNING i drive like a cullen, i tried to get a pic but you couldnt read it it was great!

Also last night i was going through my closet (which you have now all seen) and i found these jeans that have been a happy birthday bag for 4 years, yes thats right 4 years, now mind you i did not just stumble on these ive known for those 4 years that they have been in there, but ive chosen to ignore them because ive gained weight and couldnt wear them for those 4 years, LOL! They still had the tags on them! So i thought i would torture myself and try them on last night. i put them on and they slid on...and then they did the most wonderful thing that they have never done since i tried them on at the store, THEY BUTTONED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yes my friends after 4 years they fit, now i can go get them hemmed because they are CARAZZZZY long. so here is a picture for your enjoyment and mine as well!

yeah see those tags, been there 4 years!

Also today is the 8th Anniversary of Nine Eleven, do you remember where you were? i do! i was getting up and getting ready for class, i had a history class that morning and they had wheeled TVs into the halls and classrooms and were playing every news station there was. i dont really remember what i was thinking other than, "who would do that?"

So i hope everyone has a fun weekend ahead. my plans are to relax, my nephew turns 3 on saturday so i will be at Chuck E. Cheese (wish me luck!), and also i will be buying my dog a halloween costume (im not telling what) so you will have to wait for pictures (yes i will be putting it on her BEFORE halloween). Happy Weekend people!

My Closet!

2009-09-10T13:38:00.002-05:00

ok here is the closet picture i couldnt post yesterday:

Dont forget Vampire Diaries is on tonight on the CW!

Favorites for Fall and no judgeing!

2009-09-09T10:45:00.004-05:00

Hellooooooooo....how is everyone doing today? good i hope, i am well.

So i was reading some blogs yesterday and i came across a few that were talking about organizing their closets because of the weather change that is coming up. i freaking love fall (ill get to that later). so i went home last night and was looking at my own closet and thinking, "dear lord this is a mess, what are you doing." i wanted to color code it but then a friend brought up that its a good idea but you might not keep it up and i wouldn't, that's how i roll, LOL! but i need to get rid of things but don't necessarily want to give them to goodwill because i paid good money for them but i know some consignment shops around here only take things in season and not all of them would be, ya know? and then i learned eBay and craigslist were both flops. i also don't have enough readers or participation to do a giveaway soooooo I'm stuck i don't know what to do! but i am posting a picture of said closet for your enjoyment (don't judge)

before i post my closet i do want to discuss a few of my favorite things about the upcoming cooler weather, even though it has now decided to get hot again in my city which is totally ruining my idea of long sleeve shirts, jeans, sweaters, good coffee, and scarves (my new fav).

1. i know this doesn't usually come out until Christmas but the Peppermint Mocha from Starbucks puts me in the spirit and by the time it comes out its cooooooooold outside! ( i love cold )

2. Pea Coats..i love them especially ones in Navy and Red they look so classy to me.

3. the weather, the cold and the wind and breezes, i love it, i walk my dog in the cold, i exercise more in the cold than the heat, I HATE THE HEAT, unless it involves a boat, cold beer, and water activity

4. Beer..not just any beer but good cider beer..i know i can drink these during the summer too but they are too heavy when its so hot outside your sweating your balls off (not that i have balls but you get the idea)...i love Ace Pear Cider or Hornsbys *note* my brother-in-law actually got me to start drinking Hornsbys when i was 18 and I've been hooked since

5. sweaters..sweaters...sweaters...they come in all colors and i liveeee in them! not the itchy kind but the good soft kind that you can just slip on and saw ahhhhhh

6. boots....any kind....the ugg type, the rain boot, the wear to work boot, the over the jean boot, i prefer black or anything with color! (i wear nothing brown, literally!)

7. darker hair colors...for me blonde (not platinum but a good highlight) is good with a tan (which i seldom have anymore) and dark (all over) looks better in the cooler weather because i lose that color and it goes well with my skin tone

8. football, Halloween, thanksgiving, and Christmas...seriously that's all i need, i love a good game,candy, food, and presents!

That's all my lovelies! What are YOU looking forward to with the cooler weather coming?

P.S. i cant post the closet picture because blogger is having issues so i will post tomorrow!

Long weekend...never long enough

2009-09-08T13:47:00.005-05:00

So i hope everyone had a great Labor Day weekend, extended weekends aren't ever long enough, agree? So What did everyone do this weekend, me? you ask well i shopped, enjoy a friends birthday, saw a friend from out of town for a very HOT minute, relaxed, and played with my dog. i am going to post pics of my items that i got while shopping because i LOVE them.

1. and 2. because i took their picture together...i got the purple shirt for $5 at Old Navy its just a graphic tee but very flattering the best find was the black corduroy vest, i know its hard to see in the pic but it ROCKS.MY.SOCKS.OFF (those jeans are the ones from a previous post from AE)

3. is my ring from accessory city...i don't spend a lot of money on jewelry because i like statement pieces and the cheaper the better and the more of a statement they make.

4. i have agonized over posting this picture since i took it...i got the bathing suit, Ralph Lauren, on sale for 29.00 bucks the original price was 91.00 bucks, the price however was not the reason i agonized over posting it, that's me in all my bathing suit glory in the dressing room, i was taking the pictures and sending them to my friend for approval, this is the one that got it, the approval i mean. Please ignore the cellulite, FATTTTTTTTT stomach, huge thighs, horrible hair, awful smile and anything else negative you see. *hides face in shame*

So that is what i leave you with today...anyone else have any good finds over the weekend anyone have any tips for the vest, i wont wear it with just that shirt but would appreciate any other options besides a white button down. PLEASE SHARE!

Long...boring...random....please read!

2009-09-02T08:43:00.003-05:00

So this post is going to be totally long, totally boring (but with pictures) so please keep reading but i am sorry that this may be minutes of your life you may never get back =)

So i have had trouble sleeping for the last few months, i had a life changing event happen right before my birthday and i haven't been the same since (i am not ready to post it on blogger so that's all you get) but it never fails that once i fall asleep i wake up almost every hours, it sucks! so last night i tried something hoping it would make me feel better, it apparently worked, i simply said to myself "Put your big girl panties on and deal with it" (that's what my mouse pad at work says, it was homemade birthday present from my mom!) and you know what i slept through the night didn't wake up AT ALL. when my alarm went off this morning i said "wow i slept through the night, its going to be OK" and you know what it IS going to be OK and i WILL deal with it.

Second, when i got up this morning i felt pretty fierce so i wanted to dress a little fierce so i actually put on eye makeup, like eye liner and mascara, i normally skip those and just go for shadow, i also dried my hair, i normally dry it but i let its natural wave show (I'm low matience)

i wanted to get yalls opinion on yet another shirt, i love how it fits but i want to know if you all think its work appropriate, i work in an office of 4 people and 3 of them are over 60, LOL this is my life you have no idea!

Also, did anyone realize that Halloween is coming? LOL i loveeeee Halloween but no one i know has a party or even wants to get dressed up but i do so then i feel like a goon dressing up and I'm not into the slutty costumes that all the girls wear, HOWEVER there is one i would wear if i was 100lbs (which i am not) i would be a very classy yet slutty Rainbow Bright, I've seen this costume every. single. year and wanted to get it but i don't wanna be THAT girl, LOL (i cant post that pic because the websites that have that costume are NOT work appropriate, hahah)

I have been getting a lot of inspiration from all you blogger's out there and i want to say thank you! i know most of you don't have a clue i read your blog or even that you have been an inspiration but you have been and thank you for that!

Also i wanted to post a picture of my beautiful dog, Skye, who is my world and i do mean WORLD i don't know what i did before her, i guess i talked to myself more, i don't know if its sad that i talk to my dog that much or that i talk to myself that much?

NOW ON TO THE PICS!!!!!!!! *picture me doing the Vanna White hand wave*

<---the mouse pad

<---me! feeling fierce (at work, LOL) i just realized i look asleep in this picture!

<--my baby, Skye

<---the shirt (opinions please) it has rows of small sequins on the v-neck not shiny ones, LOL (please ignore my face)

Fashion Friday...i mean Tuesday

2009-09-01T07:59:00.004-05:00

so i am unsure about this shirt i have had it for a while and i got it on sale, at the Limited, but I've worn it twice this is the second time. i like it, i like the colors and i love the material but i don't know something about it doesn't sit right maybe because it gives me no shape, i don't know, HELP!!! tell me what y'all think any and all opinions welcome! (please ignore the messy dresser and the unmade bed i think it wasn't even 7am when i took this (not that i make my bed at any point in the day)

Weekend

2009-08-31T09:33:00.005-05:00

So i had an uneventful weekend...not too bad but kind of boring...where did my life go? i think i left it somewhere between 1999 and 2003...who knew 28 was boring? well at least for me not for all..anyways...so i went shopping Saturday morning with 2 of my girlfriends and i bought a pair of jeans (one size smaller than i thought, YAY me!), i also bought those shoes i posted about on the last post, i have not yet ruled out getting either rock band or the wii fit its just on hold for now due to life circumstances (I'm very cryptic)...so i shall with you my lovely Saturday finds and some things i also found that may be going on my Christmas list (i know it isn't even Halloween yet).

i bought these fun jeans but I'm on the fence with them because they show a lot of "crack" and i cant wear flats with them and i bought regulars. These jeans made me feel young!

i want this in "confession" i tried it on at Sephora and it looked great!

i also realized why Chanel sells so much perfume, they freakin smell great! i smelled Chanel #5 and Chance (i think that was the name) they all smelled great! ill keep to my Vera Wang, Ralph Lauren, and the occasional flashback to sunflowers by Elizabeth Arden.

How was YOUR weekend?

Decisions...Decisions...Decisions...

2009-08-28T09:41:00.002-05:00

So i am thinking of getting one of three things. i know tough choices in life.

Wii Fit, Rock Band for Wii, or some shoes. i dont know which one would make me the happiest or get the most use. well i know the shoes would get the most use for sure because they are comfy and super cute but think i think do i need an outfit or shirt to go with them and then with the wii stuff i wonder who will play, will i use it or will it just sit there for my nephew to tear up.

DECISIONS....DECISIONS....DECISIONS...

SHOES go to women, then medley and the color is bardo (i might get these regardless!)

I need feedback!

2009-08-25T08:02:00.003-05:00

so i am thinking about posting the things i had on craigslist (because no one, legitimately, contacted me) on eBay, has anyone out there posted anything on eBay, i mean I've bought stuff but never actually tried to sell anything

have you had any issues with shipping? i don't go to post office AT ALL, it frightens me, its a grown up place i don't like to go, i pay all my bills online because i don't trust the mail (not a government conspiracy, LOL)

do you need a pay pal account? how do you get the money from pay pal into to your actual bank account? (i have issues with money too!)

how long do you set the auctions for? do you need a buy it now price and an auction? whats a reasonable time frame? (no issues with time, LOL)

i just need some advice and any and all is greatly appreciated!

just thought i would leave you with this funny picture, since its 8:07am and thats how i feel today!

No longer totally in touch

2009-08-24T14:43:00.003-05:00

So yeah it was about time i did it and i did...

i deleted my facebook account and my twitter...LOL im not upset about it at all...and my family didnt even notice, sad huh? nah not really they arent into it that much either

i had good reason...drama reasons...people just cant seem to grow up and i have enough to say grace over that i dont need THAT involved too...

so about the weekend...uneventful would best describe it which is good....friday night i enjoyed beer on the patio at Buffalo Grill (horrible waitress but no one is perfect) then i went to my girlfriends house and enjoyed more beer on her patio...another girlfriend of ours came along...we had adult conversations about having/not having babies, buying houses, and getting married..it was very adult and very needed on my part ive been feeling very childish lately and i dont even know if that is the right way to describe it...i dont know how i would describe it...not grown up? immature? im not real sure but it was needed and felt good i hope there are more of those nights to come.

saturday i nursed a hangover but was dressed like a rockstar so i felt pretty good about me, LOL didnt do much but it was nice i just hung out with my dog and watched movies.

so i will post a picture ive been saving..dont know why i guess that goes back to the immature thing im not sure, LOL!!! enjoy

Blog Stalking!

2009-08-21T11:12:00.002-05:00

so i have been stalking a few people out there in blog land! i have been looking for any inspiration i can find to keep this going. i want to keep it going and make it somewhere people actually want to go to read and find things out even get a good laugh. i dont know its weird all the blogs ive seen have either been all about peoples kids (i dont have kids and dont want them) or they have been about their weddings (im not married). there are a few single gals out there who have these wonderful lives and takes these fabouls trips and live in their monols and kate spade world but that isnt me. im just a 28 year old trying to get her life together, her money together, and stay sane in the process. i dont take a lot of pictures or any trips (thats the whole money and life thing setback, LOL) half the time i dont even know if i am happy with my life and what it contains. the only things that makes me happy are my dog, pitchers of beer, mind numbing TV, and weekends! i guess to some extent that would make anyone happy, except you cant have my dog get your own, LOL.

This post is really lame isnt it? YES I KNOW IT IS (dont judge!)

Oh and tonight since the weather is supposed to be in 60's here i am going to be on a patio with some girls drinking beers and that my friends will make me happy!

im selling some things

2009-08-13T10:26:00.002-05:00

so i thought i would clean out my closet and sell a few things...so i posted them on craigslist...go take a look you might like something you see and if you do tell me you saw it on the blog and ill give ya deal and if i sell this i have a few more things im going to post...go check it out..it wont hurt my feelings if you dont like it...

craigslist stuff

enjoy!

2009-07-17T11:15:00.000-05:00

Has anyone ever been told this at work?

You are too efficent....

Soooo...my boss said i was and this is why...

We are in the business of recieving complaints from the public. We get the complaints in the mail and i file them which means i give them a number, organize them, put them in a folder and give them to my boss to look at. He looks at them and gives them back to me and i then start the process of sending out jurisdiction forms to 2 board members for them to sign, they sign and send them back and I notify the person they have recieved a complaint and have 30 days to respond. If i can get this all done in one day i do because it puts one less thing on my desk and one less thing for me to have to remember.

Well, i am now supposed to wait 2 or 3 days to send all the forms, even the jurisdiction forms. I have figured out the reason why he is now wanting me to do this. He wants me to have to ask him when i can send them so that he will know what is going on and doesnt feel like things are going on without him. Meanwhile he is in his office working on his work for his other position he olds in another city that does not pertain to his direction work in this office.

SERIOUSLY?!?!?!?! im too efficent i cant even imagine that being something of concern. Considering not just a few weeks ago he wanted to fire me because he didnt think i had anything to do. So you want me to sit here with my head up my ass while something waits for me to do it because you need to feel like a big bad important director and tell me when i can do it?!?!?!? FREAKIN INSANE! (thats why everyone should retire before 65, hes 72!)

Dream...

2009-06-29T14:44:00.001-05:00

I had a dream last night...
it wasnt bad...
it hurt....
i saw my grandfather...whos been dead 4 years...
i was driving down a road and i saw a house for sale, i thought it was cute so i pulled intothe driveway...
i saw the number on the sign but also noticed as i got out that the door was open..i went in
i saw the living room it was empty but it was super tiny so i turned to leave...
There he was...by the door...he smiled and i said PAWPAW!!! i hugged him...
We went over to the living room where there was now a couch and i just sat there hugging him
He said he was upset because someone missed their DR's appt and that my parents would be ok because they were going on vacation soon...

its fucked with me all day, i cry when i think about it...i miss him so much.

i wonder who missed their DRs appt? it wasnt me...

i got jokes....

2009-06-12T08:28:00.004-05:00

SO i went to Barnes and noble with a girlfriend the other night and we were wandering around looking at all the goodies on the tables and shelves when i came across something VERY funny or at least i thought it was funny....i had seen this lady walking the isles since we got there and was wondering what she would settle on to read....my girlfriend and i were in the teen section so i could not judge her! but i was curious! so we walked around a while talking and laughing and then i saw her, sitting in a chair reading something, so i read the title....here she is:

The book is........you've got jokes....we both fell out laughing, good times!

P.S. i didnt get a book at B and N because wal mart had it for 2 bucks cheaper so i got it there and it may or may not have been the second book in that teenage vampire series i started!

What to do?

2009-06-09T08:14:00.003-05:00

So i have an issue and i dont know what to do about it. it isnt a touchy subject or anything but the person causing the issue is my boss and i cant even really say its an issue its just FREAKIN.ANNOYING. i am 28 years old, been with someone for 4 years (minus a small "break") and i have no desire/want/need to get married anyway here is the "issue"

the scene is every single monday morning since ive been working here and ive been here since January of 09 sooooo 6 months...

Me: "good morning" as my boss walks into the office (he always comes in late because hes the boss and he can)

Boss: "good morning, did you get married this weekend?" (every monday for 6 months, thats a lot of mondays)

Me: "nope"

Boss: "i guess we just wont ever get you married off" (really? seriously?)

Can you see the issue in this, i mean thats exactly word for word how it goes every monday and im not sure what to say to get him to stop asking, hes a jerk, he isnt rude to me but if you confront him he thinks you are threating him or trying to challenge his authority as director, which i honestly could care less about but i need my job and dont want to lose it. he doesnt care if he hurts your feelings basically, so im thinkin i might have to deal with this until he retires, hes 74 and he still works (not hard) but hes here, LOL!

HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NEW FAV!

2009-06-04T08:01:00.000-05:00

oh.my.god if you havent watched this show SHAME ON YOU, it is freaking.hilarious!

BIG BANG THEORY

That is all, GOOD DAY!

P.S. i may have started a new vampire series book that MAYYYYYY be too young for me but i might like it anyway, MAYBE!!

Nothing...any ideas?

2009-06-03T13:56:00.000-05:00

So lately ive been blog stalking and reading about people all over the US who have fun and exciting lives, who travel, who have a million kids, some who just got married and some who are just plain crazy and i always love a good crazy! it makes me feel inadequate, maybe that isnt the right word, it makes me feel_______________.......im not sure what word i would put there, jealous might be one because all these people that im reading about going on vacay makes me sad because i need/want to be somewhere tropical with a fruity drink in my hand (that is an adult fruity drink btw)....anyways this blog is boring i need something to spice it up, any ideas?

(this was a pointless post, but a post none the less!)
PS i may have cried during the new moon trailer....MAY HAVE!

the best ive never met...

2009-05-20T15:57:00.000-05:00

i dont have time to post a lot but Joy, the best person ive never met in my life, sent me tulips for my birthday and i cried when i got them. she means the world to me and ive never even met her, she is part of my blogging family, thank you Joy from the bottom of my heart!

LOVE THIS!

2009-04-30T11:17:00.000-05:00

i totally am in support of this....tell me what yall think...i dont have kids and dont plan on having kids...whose to say i dont shell out money for a dependent (boyfriend excluded, LOL)

Pet Tax Deduction

any and all opinions welcome!

issues

2009-04-22T14:15:00.001-05:00

im having issues...no big shock there!!

GREAT idea!

2009-04-06T13:54:00.001-05:00

i think this is a great idea for Arkansas...my grandmother has Alzheimer's and if she were to wander off or something like that my family would have no idea what to do...thanks for this!

Silver Alert

This. was. funny.

2009-03-31T22:02:00.001-05:00

So on Saturday my nephew, sister, and brother in law and i were hanging at my moms. my nephew is funny, hes 2 of course he is, and cuuuuuuuuuuuuute sooooooooooooooooo cute!!!!!!! anyways he goes to mothers day out i think 2 days a week and his teacher apparently has told him some things he likes to repeat but this was just too funny!

my sister: "what does your teacher tell you at school?"

nephew: "nooooo running"

sister: "what else does she tell you?"

nephew: "i not a good listener"

sister: "what happens when you don't listen?"

nephew: "mommy hits me" then he slaps himself in the face and falls on the floor laughing

It was hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiilarious (the correct answer was actually "it makes mommy sad")

i told her she just got busted, LOL!

<----The nephew

Reason for Dark Water fear...

2009-03-26T09:26:00.000-05:00

So i posted a few days ago about a fear of dark water because there DEAD PEOPLE IN THE WATER...here is my evidence to prove that!!

DEAD PEOPLE IN THE WATER

I know he isnt in the arkansas river or in any lake near here but still it happens...anywhere!

SERIOUSLY?!?!?!?!?

2009-03-25T09:24:00.000-05:00

OK this is weird...gross, weird, nasty, unbelievable...

nasty little man

This is only a test...

2009-03-24T15:51:00.000-05:00

Ok so Shay taught me out to do this and now im giving it a shot...

This story is pretty funny, do we think its too soon though?

Iphone App, Too Soon?

(it worked for me i hope it worked for you)

Thanks Shay!!!

ALL OPINIONS!!

2009-03-24T08:21:00.000-05:00

Ok so i was watching the news last night and they were talking about what bills were being presented (i listen to this because my work is tryin to pass legislation so i always listen to see if they will say anything about it) they presented a bill about "fire safe" ciggarettes, im thinkin isnt that an oxymoron? so i looked it up today (learning is power!, LOL). Now i dont smoke but i used to and now that smokes are going to be almost 7bucks a pack im thankful i dont (not that the health reasons themselves dont rank up there with cost) so apparently a "fire safe" smoke is one that will put itself out when it isnt smoked, i mean why arent all smokes made like this? is that like the little black box that ALWAYS survives a plane crash, why dont they make the whole plane out of this?!?! The smokes are fatter in 2 places (how this works i dont know) but i never even knew it existed, did yall?

Also there are two bills i dont agree with, one is the bill for illegal immigrants to be allowed in state tuition, the only thing it has going for it is that they have to have a high school diploma, but really?!?! i dont agree that that justifys someone who is here illegally and has prolly milked the system already for all its worth to get the same rate *I* would get, dont like it dont agree with it!

The other is this racial profiling hotline, they already passed it which is stupid enough. it allows for a hotline for people to call if they feel they have been a victim of racial profiling by the police. i mean SERIOUSLY??!?!?! i just cant even begin to get into my feelings on this here. it just blows my mind that people think we need something like this, dont get me wrong i dont have rose colored glasses on when it comes to the world and i know it happens, but really? you want to waste money on THIS?!?!? *rolls eyes* whatever

So there, i will get off my soapbox, ive held back a little bit.

Oh and just food for thought: i am takin a spanish class and since my teacher is the director of a clinic thats where my class is, the clinic you ask, is an abortion one, yeah what bill could i introduce for that? LOL

almost time..

2009-03-23T13:21:00.000-05:00

This is pretty gross, just an FYI before you go any further:

So i know I'm not alone in this...dark water...lakes, rivers, those things...i know its coming time with the weather getting warmer and tans starting to happen and bathing suits being out but its really freaking me out, AGAIN!...people drown everyday (i think close to it I'm sure) in bathtubs, lakes, rivers, streams, swimming pools, anywhere there is water people can drown, I GET IT! however people that drown (I'm not using the word die because then id never swim again) in lakes and rivers don't usually get found which means THEY ARE STILL IN THERE!!!!!!!! i realize that the water usually eats them away and they more than likely dissolve (THAT'S WORSE!!!, LOL!!!) but what if I'm minding my own business hanging out at the lake/river and i feel something touch me (no matter what it may be) my first thought will ALWAYS be, I KNOW THAT'S SOMEONE not some THING but some ONE, i know its highly unlikely but the idea is in my head and the fact that i can NOT see in the water or see THAT far down freaks me out even more, i don't want to drown, i can swim but water is a very powerful thing.

My boyfriend seems to think this is a stupid irrational fear and does NOT understand it or have sympathy for it (he is also missing the compassion neurons in his brain) so he thinks its funny to throw the football we are tossing back and forth OUT into the water forcing me to go get it and getting further into the water, i promise you i have a panic attack whenever he does this, its insane. Is there anyway over this? i mean you hear stories all the time about people drowning or going missing and they were close to water, so how is one who thinks about this often supposed to just get over it or look past it?

Please if i go to the lake with you or the river or whatever may be the case don't make me get into the water, I'm good on the land, on the boat, sunning, comfortable is what i am and the water makes me uncomfortable.

this is too much

2009-03-20T11:39:00.001-05:00

now i know smokes are expensive (i dont smoke but have friends that do) and this is seriously crazy for kids to do, WOW

http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,509932,00.html

smart people...

2009-03-19T08:55:00.000-05:00

So the article i posted the other day about the austrian dad who kept his daughter hostage has been found guilty and will not live the rest of his life (which will be short because he is old) in a secure facility:

http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,509785,00.html

(i dont know if any of you are reading these but im gonna keep posting, LOL)

marriage isnt what it used to be....

2009-03-19T08:05:00.000-05:00

So this woman and this man really want the public to believe that he isn't gay? i don't know many guys who do it with dudes that aren't gay? do y'all? i mean i know that the institute of marriage isn't as strong as it once was but seriously lady, you really think he had some divine intervention and its cured him of his gayness, I DOUBT IT, no matter what you believe that's a crock of shit.

http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,509760,00.html

i cant even imagine...

2009-03-18T09:19:00.000-05:00

imagine this...you are 18 years old and realize you can have your own freedom to do and go and make whatever choice you want...but your dad locks you away in a basement with no windows and rapes you and forces you to have his children at which point he takes those children from you to raise with your mother who has not helped you in anyway out of this siutation...imagine this goes on for 25 years...this really happened to this poor girl in austria...her father even killed one of her (their) children...he has FINALLY admitted his gulit on all counts...ive been following this story, i dont know why it has intrigued me so much, i just felt so bad for the girl and her children who for the most part never saw the light of day...

http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,509620,00.html

(whats with me posting all this foxnews stuff?)

sweet jebus...

2009-03-18T08:13:00.000-05:00

i know im no better than Foxnews postin this picture but sweet lord in heaven this is a big booty!! it makes me feel better about myself because sometimes i feel i look this large but know i am no where near this....enjoy!! (more relivant posts to come later today but this was just toooo freakin good to pass up)

it is true...

2009-03-16T13:36:00.000-05:00

This article really made me think...or maybe it didnt since im 27...hmmm food for thought.

http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,509362,00.html

Bien...

2009-03-11T08:43:00.000-05:00

i started a Spanish class on monday...its weird i havent been "in class" in a really long time and it was kind of refreshing, almost like i missed school, WHAT IS THAT ABOUT?!?!?

Anyways im really looking forward to learning Spanish and i am really excited about it, nerdy i know but its something i felt i needed and wanted to do!!!

So far so good, i will let you know the progress, it isnt for a grade or anything its for learning and im gonna learn!

PS. i will load pics from the bachelorette pics soon, i just gotta find my camera cord (i need a new laptop it doesnt have a place i can just put in my card and that makes me sad and out of touch!)

crazy insane weekend to come...

2009-03-05T21:11:00.001-06:00

oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooK....this weekend should be the following due to bachelorette party in hot springs:

crazy
insane
chaos
drunken (word?)
full of fun
good friends
good times
good beer

pictures to come!!!!!

Wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.....

2009-02-20T13:54:00.000-06:00

So i got a Wii and i have to say I'm rather impressed with it, i love it to say the least. it was/is my Christmas present from my parents. funny story, i got an XM radio from them for my original Christmas present but got my car shortly after that already had XM on it so i didn't need one. they took it back but it was past the 30 days so they got a store credit so i decided i wanted a Wii. i made a good choice! funny thing is i actually played it for like 2 and half hours one night and almost 4 hours the night before and lost 2 lbs, LOL and i don't even have the Fit, which i hear will kick your ass. I'm curious anyone else out there that reads this has one and what you think of yours, good games to get, new things to try, let me know, i also have a remote and nun chucks and WILL TRAVEL (that's funny to me).

i played boxing (which i swear to you was hilarious because my arms hurt sooo bad, THEY BURNED)

i bowled (i love to bowl and I'm good at it, this i could do for hours on end!)

i played tennis (i used to be good at tennis but this game is crazy its so real!)

i golfed (i suck at golf in real life and Wii life) HAHAHA (funny to me again)

i want Wii speak (nerdy i know) but i don't know if i know enough people to play the games with and talk to (i need Wii Buddy's)

pictures....

2009-02-10T21:59:00.000-06:00

This is my new car

this is me a few days ago (i like it)

(this is me like 5 years ago, holy crap!)

this is my official name tag at work, i got it today!! YAYY!

randomonium...

2009-02-10T21:22:00.000-06:00

ok so this post is going to be totally random...i may be all over the place because thats how my thoughts are right now...work has been good, 30 days and still there and when i accidently (really it was) looked at my Boss' calendar yesterday she is going to put in for my raise next month, which is wonderful since i took a pay cut to take this job (i had to so im not gonna complain)...been working and feeling things out with the people there getting to know everything and everyone (small office though so its easy)...im starting to think i cant hear well...i dont hear well like if i cant see you chances are i cant hear you (i feel like an old woman!)...my boyfriend sucks but thats a whole other blog and im not ready to discuss him here yet..i am getting really excited one of my girlfriends is getting married and her bachelorette party is the first weekend of March and i can NOT wait to get away...we are going to hot springs (it isnt far but its AWAYYYYYY) i really need to get the hell out of here...so one month with the new car and im still loving it! loveeeeeeeeeeee it...i would sleep in it if i could...i think im addicated to facebook...ive sent some pictures to my e-mail so im going to open them and save them and then put them on this blog because its really boring with no pictures....they will be random pictures of course because random seems to be my middle name these days...really sad thing a lady i worked with at the collections board passed away it was really sad she was healthy and then just had a massive stroke and passed away within days of it happening...she reminded me of my mom so it was kind of strange...not that i think about my mom dieing but she is almost 60, thats so weird to me i never thought about my mom getting old or my dad (whos a whole other story as well) hmmm imagine that the boyfriend and the dad are both LONGGGGGGG stories i see a pattern...sad i know...anyways...i think im done with the random things and now im going to go open those pictures and save them and load them....if i cant figure it out i guess they wont be here later but im not doing anything else so i might as well figure it out, LOL

Something i forgot!

2009-01-13T18:32:00.000-06:00

I GOT A NEW CAR!!!!!!!!!!! its a 2005 honda accord ex-l which means i have leather seats, navigation, heated seats, sunroof, all goooooooooooooood and fun stuff, oh and a 6 disk cd changer...i will take pictures and post them soon

New things

2009-01-13T18:22:00.000-06:00

so i cant remember if i posted what i did at my old job, with the check cashers or not but it was N-O-T-H-I-N-G and i really mean absolutely nothing i think that's why i posted so many blogs and a lot of things on facebook. Now i have so much to do my day actually gets away from me which is a welcome change of pace because it has been a really long time since i have actually worked. i think the last time i worked was when i waited tables almost 5 years ago and that's really sad.

i do enjoy my work not only does it keep me busy and make the day go by pretty fast i am actually learning things that i didn't even know existed. i work for the appraisal licensing and certification board. i seem to always find the jobs that have the longest names but its done me well so far.

so i just thought id post a catch up blog and let everyone know I'm still here and I'm doing well (not that anyone cares, LOL)

New Job and New Years Resolutions...

2009-01-04T00:47:00.000-06:00

So i start my new job on Monday (i think its all i can talk about right now). i am kind of nervous only because i don't really know what to expect. i know that my boss is kind of a jackass so i know to expect that other than that I'm not really sure.

i did have some new years resolutions that i thought i might share with anyone who reads this:

1. Buy a new car...my car currently is a 1998 Honda accord that has been beat to hell (my fault mostly) but given that i was laid off in 2008 twice and had the intention with both jobs to get one i think i deserve is this time (this job isn't going anywhere, i pray and i hope all of you pray for that too).

2. To take a real vacation...to go somewhere and really get away even if that means going alone i will take a real vacation.

3. Lose 20lbs by July because that is when my 10 year high school reunion is and the idea of that in itself makes me want to throw up. i don't really want to go but my girlfriends that ARE going insist that I'm going as well. Here is the thing with high school, if i don't talk to you now chances are i didn't talk to you then, i had my group of friends and i did not stray from them (how lame huh?). so basically I'm going and hopefully there is a bar because i will be camped out at it all night, LOL.

Jan 5th...

2008-12-22T14:24:00.001-06:00

That is the day i start my new job. This takes a huge weight off my back and i actually feel so relieved its crazy. i mean i kinda thought i was going to get it after she sent the e-mail but you still think well maybe that's what they told the other people too (i could talk myself out of breathing if i really tried) but i actually feel lighter i could feel the tension lift when she said "the job is yours if you are still interested" the smart ass in me was thinking "lady Ive been stressing about the job for almost 2 months and you think NOW i don't want it?" but i didn't i said "YES THANK YOU SO MUCH" i had to contain my excitement.

I GOT THE JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(drinks will begin tomorrow evening if anyone wants to join e-mail me or call if you have the number)

Poetic...

2008-12-19T09:11:00.000-06:00

so i decided this blog needed some updating...it needed a new layout so that's what it got. That design you see, by the way, is the same design on my t-shirt i bought from eBay.

Also something that happened this morning...when i started this job, that I'm about to leave, there was lady in the parking lot the first day i started who had thought she lost some money. i was in my car when she walked past me looking for it and when i got out she asked if i had seen her drop anything, i said no because i hadn't seen her drop anything. she went into the building and i was still in my car getting my things together (i wasn't even sure i was in the right lot when i got here the first day, LOL). she came back out and i tried to help her look but we didn't find anything so i walked towards my building, thankfully the money was in her car, she ran up to me before i got in the building and said I FOUND IT!!, thank god because she said it was like 700 bucks. so i haven't seen this woman since and Ive gotten here the same time (almost) every day since that day. so today i see her, i found this poetic given that I'm leaving in less than a month.

just a little story that i thought id share (i don't think anyone reads this anyway besides joy especially when i tell her to, LOL)

hold your breathe...

2008-12-18T09:14:00.000-06:00

So i might be posting this a little premature but i don't think so so that's why I'm doing it:

I FREAKING GOT A JOB OFFER!!!!! (i got an e-mail stating and i quote "you are our number 1 candidate" and asking me to come in on Monday for a second interview in which i hope they say sign here, welcome to the team, see you the first of the year.) That is my ideal situation of how it will go but we will see once i get in there. Y'all i swear i cried when i got that e-mail. It didn't help that it came directly after i signed off career builder and had applied for customer service jobs, ::cringe::. Its tough out there people and i can understand what everyone is going through that is currently looking for a job. I have had to look for a job twice IN ONE YEAR!

Also just a fun little side note, I WON THE SHIRT IVE BEEN DIEING FOR ON EBAY LAST NIGHT AS WELL, its a black Ed Hardy shirt that says Love Kills Slowly with a skull on it. I know it sounds strange but ed hardy had sold out of them and couldn't tell me when they were going to get them in so i was really happy when i found some on eBay but this is my luck: i bid on a shirt about a month ago and won that one however the ahole that sold it took my money and never delivered my shirt so i had to file a dispute with pay pal and also my credit card company to get my money back (first time I've been burned on eBay) so this time i made sure this person had a store and had been on eBay for a few years. Thankfully i bid on the right shirt i won it last night and paid last night (i don't like to wait) and got an e-mail about 5 mins later from the seller telling me she was taking my shirt to the post office this morning and mailing it to me. WHAT A FREAKING RELIEF and I'm soooooo excited to get it, its a Christmas present to myself!

just wanted to share, i will post Monday to tell everyone its official!!!!

total loooooooooser...

2008-12-12T23:40:00.000-06:00

ok so its true, ive been trying to deny it for years now but i just cant anymore.

i am a loser!

i have now seen twilight twice because i love it that much and it allows me to escape reality for 2 hours, LOL!

i know im not the only one who has seen it more than once but im not 13.

just wanted to share!

CHRISTMAS!

2008-11-25T09:03:00.000-06:00

Ok so i know it isnt after thanksgiving and all that blah but i had to do it. i bought a christmas tree last night and i had to put it up when i got home. i had christmas music and everything. let me tell you if you havent bought lights or anything yet get the LED lights for reals they are freakin bright, seriously! i havent put the ornaments on yet (those go on tonight) i forgot hooks, HAHAH!

Job....

2008-11-12T12:54:00.000-06:00

So I'm losing my job. i don't know what else to say. i don't have to be out of here until the first of the year but if i find something between now and then I'm free to go. i mean i just got this damn job and NOW THIS?!?!?!?! i don't know what I'm going to do. have you tried finding a job lately i mean its impossible!!!!!!!!!!!! i don't know what to do. if anyone knows of anyone hiring in little rock, let me know!

THIS SUCKS!

newwwwwwwwwwww....

2008-11-10T09:33:00.000-06:00

ok i just took these while i was at work (no one is here so i didnt look like a goon taking picture of myself) well wait im alone in my office taking pictures of myself? wouldnt that in itself make me gooney? anyways thats for another blog:

its been a while....

2008-10-17T16:03:00.001-05:00

dang i didnt realize it had been a while since i posted anything. i didnt really realize how busy i have been until someone at work said "dang you havent stopped moving in about 2 weeks." this is true yall i havent and i didnt even realize it. i shall note for you what has kept me busy:

1. was informed october 6th we had to have all the stores in the state audited by october 15th, hey thanks for the heads up!
2. started my audits on october 7th with my local city which took what felt like forever.
3. drove the next day october 8th to conway, russellville, and dardanelle. did you know that to get from russellville to dardanelle you have to cross over the river, hmm who knew? i didnt!!! well at least until i crossed it.
4. october 9th to hope, texarkana, ashdown, and nashville. i got to see and have lunch with a very dear friend in texarkana and see her cuuuuuute house she just bought, yay for growing up and buying houses (it is however beyond my comprehension).
5. ocotber 10th i went to stuttgart, unable to locate one of my audit places because they moved, turned in their license and didnt get this info until i got back to work on monday (yay for getting paid mileage anyway!) also one of the places was closed and as im sitting in my car someone pulls up to open up but does not open the place so i get out and start taking pictures (because thats what my job lets me do) and no one asks me who i am or what im doing, if i was dude i would have been like who the hell are you woman? and why are you taking a picture of my front door?
6. october 11th, i got tickets for me and my boyfriend to go see Lisa Lampanelli, for those who dont know her check her out on youtube but if you are easily offended dont go check her out. she was freakin hilarious, i kept smacking my boyfriend in the arm and leg she was so funny. she kicked a guy out for heckling which was good times. ohhhh yeah the show was in tunica so of course we gambled. i came back 100 bucks richer which i consider BIG MONEY!, LOL. october 12th we went to memphis motorsports park to watch some races (ive never been) it was loud but good times, he enjoys them so i try! got back that night to see that we have no cable, internet, or phone service. yayyyy comcast, thanks!
7. october 13th i got to stay in the office and rest a little. i had to drive to and from tunica because if you let my boyfriend drive he WILL FALL ASLEEP AND I DO NOT WANT TO DIE! so i have to drive the long distances but he drives around the town when we get there (easy huh?)
8. october 14th i drove to marked tree, trumann, osceola, blytheville, and paragould to do my audits talk about small town USA. then from paragould i drove to jonesboro and stayed the night. i did not sleep well and had some fucked up dreams (me and my boyfriend were brother and sister and he was dating a girl i went to junior high with) sooo strange makes me not want to stay in jonesboro again!
9. october 15th i do my audits in jonesboro and then head to pocahontas and walnut ridge. i mean really could i have gotten the more rural towns. this was also my daddys birthday so i have to make sure i was home by 5 so i could be at my moms to help her and eat with my family. i do NOT like being rushed and i do NOT like being late! dad birthday went well, good food and good times!
10. october 16th and 17th i finished up paperwork for all my travels. the only enjoyment i got was when i filled out my travel reimbursment and realized how much money i was gonna get! (yay for mileage!)

So yes it has been busy and im finally getting to relax im going to go see one of my girlfriends new apartments and im going to bring her booze!!! she will love it and i will too!

PS: im looking for a halloween party let me know if anyone knows of any!

Old friends, new times..

2008-09-23T09:38:00.000-05:00

So i thought i should blog about my Friday night with some old friends.

it was good times, we hadn't seen each other in about 10 years (can you imagine we live in the same city, that isn't THAT big, and hadn't run into each other in 10 years) but we had a blast and i hope there are many more good times to follow. now that i have caught up with them there are plenty more i know i am missing out on who knows if ill catch up with them as well as these 2 girls but the idea is there. i had really missed them and didn't really realize it until last Friday night. i think we had a blast (maybe a little too much beer but you can never have too much beer i don't think) but it was good times and good conversation, what more can you ask for?

love you guys, really!

New Fav...

2008-09-15T09:06:00.000-05:00

So i was watching TV last night, with my sweet Lil doggy on my lap and reading my book when i realized HOLY CRAP ITS ON!!! i am talking about TRUE BLOOD on HBO. I'm very excited about this show and also a little freaked out but loving it so far. just wanted to share. you guys should watch really you should

Listen to the little voice...

2008-09-11T13:25:00.001-05:00

So this prolly should have gone under the 6 weird things but now its become its own post.

back story to current story:
In 2006 i was living in otter creek at the time and had taken a day off to clean my house top to bottom. it was a few days before thanksgiving, the date has finally slipped my mind. anyways i hadn't left my house all day with all the cleaning and so at about 10:00pm i was starving and decided i wanted taco bell so i left and got taco bell (this is something that was common, leaving late at night to go run and get something and come back home, NO BIGGIE). so i got back home and noticed that the people that live above me (who were parking A-HOLES) had come out after i left and took the only space left facing the building. (another side note, we were the only 2 apartments that were 3 bedrooms, so we each got 2 spots, well the lady above us had her and her 2 kids and it was just me and my boyfriend and of course both her kids drove well they parked in 3 spots and only left 1 for us) so anyway i had to park facing away which wasn't too far but it was the principal. anyway so i saw 3 kids playing in the parking lot which wasn't uncommon but i thought it was weird because it was so late, it was about 10:30 when i got back. well of course every single brain cell i have is screaming at me DO NOT GET OUT OF YOUR CAR, DO NOT GET OUT OF YOUR CAR!!! but what did i do, i got out of my car.
i got attacked, i got charged from the back shoved across the parking lot had my purse stolen and then he took my keys and stole my car. i didn't know what to do (i lost control of my taco bell as well which really pissed me off later because they ran over it too) so I'm laying there praying they don't kick me or hit me with something and when i look back i realize they are all in my car and i need to get the hell up, so i did. well i got up and ran to the apartment upstairs because i knew they were home (i could hear the TV on and saw people looking out the window BUT THE BITCHES DIDN'T ANSWER THE GOD DAMN DOOR) (my boyfriend wasn't home) so i went to the only other apartment i knew and that was the building manager well she turned out to be drooling on her bed from taking too many Oxycontin's (she sucked) so THANK GOD for smokers because a girl came out to smoke and i approached her not wanting to scare her. thank god for this woman her husband was a police officer, she herself used to be a police officer and knew the person on patrol in our area. i owe my sanity to this lady, she even called my insurance company for me and filed my claim.
They found the car about a week later when they had followed them (they were still in high school) home and they jumped out and into another stolen car.

anyway back to my point. i was walking to my car today for lunch and i heard someone behind me (i can NOT tell you what its like to fear for your life and not know what someone is going to do) so i heard footsteps behind me and my heart started racing. so i sidestepped into my parking lot and so did he, now I'm panicked and almost frozen with fear, i begin to RUN. i have no idea if this man meant me harm or wanted to steal anything from me but i was NOT going find out.

i really just wanted to post this for my own sanity because i had a meltdown in my car and was still shaking when i get back from lunch. i posted this for my own sanity. LOL whats left of it anyway.

6 weird things about me:

2008-09-09T09:22:00.001-05:00

I fee like i wanna do this but don't know if i want people to know my weirdness:

1. I cant wash my hands. i mean i can but i cant. i cant stand the way my hands feel from soap (any soap even in the shower) that i don't wash them in the bathroom. i use hand sanitizer or lotion with hand sanitizer in it. i know its weird but it sends me into panic if i wash them.

2. i cant stand to hear someone eat like over the phone. the sound of the smacking irritates me like nothing else. i mean i get mad and really want to hang up.

3. i take pictures of myself all the time, with my phone or my camera either one. its stupid but i do it anyway.

4. i am very shy if i don't know you i will not speak. even if i know you and i haven't seen you in a while chances are i wont speak either.

5. i do not want children and will not have them. i hate when everyone says you are still young you will change your mind (I'm 27). NOPE GUESS WHAT I WONT, i don't want the little monsters ruining me or my life (no offense to you guys that have them and want them) it just is NOT for me. i am selfish, very very selfish. i want to go and do when i want where i want and i don't want to answer to anyone.

6. i want new friends. i know that sounds odd but if you met the ones i had now you would agree. i never in a million years would have ever thought myself to be friends with people who have made the decisions or done the things that these people have. they say you are the company you keep, so i don't keep them anymore, i keep myself and no one else. i do not want to be associated with those type of people and do not want people to assume i am the same way because i am not. i don't mean to sound judgemental (I'm not going to put her business out there it isn't my place) but it has to be the stupidest thing ANYONE could and would EVER do.

blah

2008-09-09T09:14:00.000-05:00

so I'm at work and blogging because i honestly have nothing else to do!!!

i took this picture the other day when i went out to investigate this place, it was in a very scary place and i think they are doing something they shouldn't but that's beside the point.

the picture i took (not on my camera) was of a fence and on that fence in spray paint were the words: STAY OUT BILLY

now it may not be as funny to you but picture this, homes in ruins (looks like tornado ruins) burned down houses, vacant houses, liquor store with several homeless coming out (that's where i had to investigate fun huh?) and then we see this lovely bit of information, we both fell out laughing (me and the girl i went with) pulled over VERY quickly and snapped the shot.

a few things...

2008-09-05T09:23:00.001-05:00

So yeah i just realized how long it has been since i blogged, i cant believe I've let it go this long with nothing to say, HAHAHAHA I'm usually full of words. so where do i begin...

OK so labor day came and went quickly. the boyfriend and i got out of town to Branson to do some shopping and just get away. we had a good time, spent too much money but had a good time. we went to the outlets and ate good food and had a wonderful view from our hotel room, no touristy pictures here folks I'm not into that. and blogger does not want to load them so i will post those later. anyways we had a good time it was nice to just get away.

sooooooo, when we came home on Monday we watched all the stuff about Gustav and worried about the people of Louisiana only to realize the downpour that was coming our way. so we made it through Monday not wanting to go to work on Tuesday but it was bound to happen, all good things must come to an end. so as we are sleeping on Tuesday morning, i get up for work at 7 (FYI) the power goes off at 6:30, GREAT I SAY!!!! so i get up at 7, shower but cant dry my hair or put on make up so i look like hell, thank god i don't see anyone at my job but the people i work with and they don't really give a crap. so Tuesday night comes and goes with still no power and still the downpour of the century. so i wake up Wednesday morning, with still no power and still getting dressed in the dark and unable to fix myself, afraid i look like i slept in what i had on the night before because i can't iron either ( i will iron a t-shirt if it looks wrinkled so I'm having issues with this ) sooooo still no power Wednesday, go to bed and wake up Thursday to STILL NO FREAKING POWER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. now i understand that I'm not the only one without power but excuse me, the people across my street have power and the street lights in MY FREAKIN YARD ARE ON but MY DAMN HOUSE LIGHTS DON'T WORK?!?!?!?!?! are you kidding me? it seems that we (being my house and my block of about 10 houses) are on ANOTHER power grid that the people across my street are not on, they seem to have gotten on the indestructible grid and we got the shanty!!! now if someone out there who might read this can explain how this would happened, I'm all ears, because i might go rip the power company a new one if this doesn't change!!!!. so anyway I've been reading a book by flashlight its actually funny because it isn't a flashlight its a light you clip to your grill that we have clipped to the bed (hey it works, right?) so anyway its now FRIDAY and i STILL HAVE NO POWER and they cant tell me when they are going to have it restored. i understand that storms do damage BUT WHEN MY WHOLE DAMN NEIGHBORHOOD HAS POWER AND I DON'T I GET PISSED!!!!!

so yeah that's been whats been going on in my world since the last time i blogged.

my teenage soul...

2008-08-27T22:56:00.001-05:00

so i was in target with my mom the other day and came across this book, Twilight. i picked it up because of the cpver, very simple which i love. so i read the back and i had to have it. i have this theory about myself (im a nerd i know) that in a former life i was a gay hairdresser seamstress vampire lover, i wasnt a vampire i was the one that some love lost vamp picked to be his forever (i know again i get it) so anyway i bought this book on sunday and started it monday well im almost done (i am not a fast reader unless i love something) and it appears i love this one, it fits my teenage vampire lover soul just right. if you like the vamp thing you should read it, kinda simple but still good. just thought i would share.

Just a note..

2008-08-23T21:23:00.000-05:00

I got my first set of business cards at work on Friday. it was so funny i was so excited to get them i could barely get the package open, how sad huh? i felt all grown up and mature, hahaha. i just thought i would share that. OHHH and i sent a subpoena on Friday as well, that made me feel important, even if I'm not it at least made me feel that way, HAHAHA.

If i were....

2008-08-22T09:30:00.000-05:00

If I were an animal, I would be a Cheetah, when i was little i always wanted to be one because of how fast they were or my dog so i could know what shes really thinking.

If I were a movie, I would be Auntie Mamme, she was the coolest woman ever and if i was a crazy aunt i would be like her (see it if you havent).

If I were a food, I would be any type of pasta, i loveeeeeee pasta especially bowtie with chicken and spinach, thats what i would be but then i would end up eating myself (not dirty-like, YA FREAKS).

If I were a tv character, I would be Jenni the assistant on flipping out, she cracks me up and puts up with him so well.

If I were a piece of clothing, I would be i great pair of stilleto heels that were comfy and so sexy!

If I were a day of the week, I would be Friday night, its the start of the weekend and there are so many possibilities.

If I were a holiday, I would be St Patricks day, im irish, and i would be drunk but fun and social.

If I were a piece of furniture, I would be Theater Seats you can buy for your house, 2 seater with big comfy pillows and a cup holder that reclines.

If I were a color, I would be RED, sexy and sophisticated at the same time, JUST LIKE ME!

If I were a city, I would be Rome, Italy, full of life, love and history.

RAIN RAIN GO AWAY!!!

2008-08-20T10:05:00.000-05:00

So today in my part of the world it is raining something fierce. so when i get up to get ready to go to work i have a normal routine (I'm a Taurus do not shake up my routine) so i got up and got ready for work showered and got my lunch together and i was mad of course because it was raining and my umbrella was in my car and i would get wet, but oh well i wouldn't melt (I'm soo not made of sugar) so anyways its like monsoon rains when i walk out of my front door and I'm pissed but make a go anyway because i HAVE to go to work. so i got in my car and i hear something that sounds like i left my window rolled down and i turned to look in my backseat to see if it was one of those windows and SURPRISE SURPRISE!!! a tree limb fell onto my back glass and busted it all out. isn't mother nature hilarious? the best part is about 2 days ago my dad (who was paying my insurance until then) just changed me to liability only, good times huh? and this all happend before 9am, great start huh?

The Plague

2008-08-08T10:19:00.000-05:00

So i started my new job this week, YAY ME!! so far so good, we did kinda hit a bump on Thursday but no biggie it has been taken care of. so Friday is here and i figured i should post about this lovely and wonderful sickness (plague) i developed on Monday (my first day).

so i woke up Monday and was like WHOA i don't feel good but ill get over it midday i usually do when i feel funky first thing in the morning. so i got up and got ready for work and left. so i get there and i don't know where I'm supposed to park because there are 2 lots outside my building, one is pay and one is not and i was told they would pay your parking so I'm freaking out because i cant get ahold of my boss. so i go in (per advice of my sister) and start my day. not much to it really. so by midday I'm starting to feel worse and have pumped myself full of ibuprofen but I'm making it. so i get home and my parents want to take me and my boyfriend to dinner to celebrate, nothing fancy just the 4 of us, so i say of course because i cant turn down free food. LOL.

so i wake up on day 2 and think I'M DIEING!!!i feel worse and now sound worse than i did on day one and today i have to travel to forest city and to do some inspections, and of course i sound ridiculous. but i was trooper and filled myself with more ibuprofen and made it through!!

now here comes the fun part, Wednesday comes and i officially have the worst cold of my life, full of sinus drainage, funny talking, swollen glands, and all the fun nose blowing and coughing to go with it. so I'm at work, thank god there wasn't much for me to do that day but sit at my computer and kill my liver some more with more ibuprofen.

Thursday (the day we hit a snag) we were supposed to go to Clarksville that day and I'm dieing, I'm now up to sudafed which doesn't really help much and i cant sleep because (and this is nasty) my nose is running like a 3 year old and i cant make it stop. so we didn't go to clarksville and no one called to tell me any different so i went home (probably shouldn't have but i did). i felt better Thursday night so we went out for sushi. on the way home i felt a fever coming on and was asleep before 10.

so here we are on Friday and I'm still dieing. the coughing has gotten worse and the nasal part is ridiculous. OK what I'm about to say is really nasty (at least to me) i woke up and i could not open my eyes, they were glued shut with eye boogers. literally i felt like snot was coming out of my eyes. it was the nastiest thing i have ever seen and experienced in my life.

so that has been my week of sickness and new job. exciting first week i think!!! i have a picture of my office but its on my cell phone and i left that at home today, ill post that soon if i remember.

FUNK!!

2008-07-27T15:45:00.000-05:00

i have been in this horrible funk lately and i really have no idea why. i thought maybe it was because i was losing my job and didnt have another one but even after i got the state job i was in such a bitchy mood and i feel so bad because i took it out on my boyfriend and he didnt deserve it and he didnt understand it either so of course we got into a HUUUUUUGE fight and of course that didnt help. i think i may be coming out of it and dear god i hope so. the more i think of how much i will be able to do with this new job and the more of a life ill be able to have the better i get i think its just getting through this last week of the old job thats just dragging itself out thats driving me insane and of course no one else will work the hours that the people who have already left ar leaving behind so i get stuck doing them, if anyone reads this and wants to grab a drink monday after 6 or thursday anytime after 12, YES NOON!!! thats my last day and thats how long we are working till, let me know because a beer or a glass of wine would do me GREAT!! and i need a laugh. this picture is how i feel, supergirl on fire,LOL:

FINALLY!!!!.....A JOB!!!!

2008-07-25T18:54:00.000-05:00

Yes it is true, i got a job and its a good one and its more money and better hours and REAL, i think. let me start off by saying i have been so stressed out about having to get another job that ive made myself sick (literally) and given myself migraines that isnt all ive been sick with but i promise you do NOT want to know that nasty details of the rest of my sickness, now i dont usually get THAT stressed out but when you dont count on mom and dad anymore it HURTS you physically (at least it did me). So when i orignally found out i was losing my job i laughed, i dont know why but i did. my job is currently the easiest job on the plant and it pays well, really well considering what i do. (its hard to explain what i do because we do not have these things in Arkansas). so anyway back to the story so i laughed, right, shouldn't have apparently but it all worked out for the best. my brother in law called me to tell me this lady he was doing some work for had an opening and it paid well and it was easy and I'm thinking YEAH RIGHT. well don't doubt the in laws because i will be working for the state (YAY ME) with all the paid holidays and weekends off. i will be an inspector for the state board of collections (doesn't it sound like i need to be driving a tempo and have polyester pants on) hahah, anyways, i will be going around to check cashing places around the state (YAY TRAVEL) and get paid for miles and even hotels if i have to stay over, and the best part (besides all that) i get to charge people for me to show up in their store, i mean i knew i was worth a fee but now its for real, HAHAHAHHA. so anyways it pays well and I'm excited about that too. so that's my story of my what i will be doing hopefully for a really long time!!!

i REALLY like these...

2008-07-18T18:40:00.001-05:00

Ok so i think have decided when i get my new job (wherever and whenever that may be) i am going to get a smartcar. i know i know they are small and funny lookin but im weird and i like them. they actually can come all fancy. you can get leather heated seats, a convertible top, even the panels come off and you can change them out. i mean what more can i ask for, LOL. i think i like the convertible and ive decided either white with red interior or red with leather interior. here are a few pictures none are the one i bulit in my head but cute nonethless: